Jen Galbraith
Cananda
When my son was six and I was in a new relationship we found out at our 18 week ultrasound the day after Thanksgiving that our baby had died just days before the ultrasound. I was sent home overnight and admitted the next day where I was given some tablets to start labour so I could deliver our baby. I requested another ultrasound because I was having a hard time accepting that out baby had died. I had refused the pain medication they offered and I felt every contraction. The nurse asked just before I delivered my baby if I wanted to hold him. At that time I couldn’t handle that so I said no. I delivered our baby boy just before midnight and they immediately left the room with the baby. We left the hospital the next morning. I spent months recovering from the loss. I experienced post partum depression and ended up leaving my job due to the PPD. I didn’t even know if the baby was a boy or a girl. I had to do some research to find out that I was carrying a baby boy. Due to the fact that a loss of a baby before 20 weeks is classified as a late miscarriage, our baby boy was never tested and no autopsy was performed. Therefore, we had no idea why he died. We were unable to legally name him but I named him Jackson Joseph.
A little over a year later I found out I was pregnant but terrified and did not allow myself to get excited. I never told my baby’s father I was pregnant until I had an ultrasound at 11 weeks and everything looked good because of what we had already been through with our first loss. We waited until our 16 week scan to tell my children, close family and friends we were having a baby boy. At our 20 week ultrasound we were told everything looked great and we allowed ourselves to be excited and started spreading the great news.
Almost 2 years later I unexpectedly became pregnant again. After two early ultrasounds my doctor believed the pregnancy was going to miscarry. I decided to let things happen naturally. After 3.5 weeks of waiting I contacted the doctor to book a D&C because the waiting drove me crazy. I explained that my pregnancy symptoms had gotten stronger and I really wanted an ultrasound before doing the D&C. Almost a week later during the ultrasound my doctor found my 10.5 week baby with a strong heartbeat. That was when I started my research on NAIT and found the NAIT yahoo group from the Wikipedia site. I asked plenty of questions and members from the group provided me with information I would never have known to ask my doctor.
Jennifer